Does this happen to anyone else?  I am feeling something very intensely, yet cannot figure out what it emotion it is or what is causing it. It just feels heavy and my inner world feels like a hurricane. So to figure out what I'm feeling I'll usually use my Ne to think of possibilities that could be upsetting until I feel a prick in my heart that verifies if it's the source/ emotion.  I think it is caused by feeling several conflicting emotions at one... thoughts?

hahah *catches drift*

Yeah, totally sucks though. it just really bothers me because I think my two greatest intelligences are knowing myself and other people. And I don't know what I'm feeling. Not even close... sad? upset? let down? happy? anxious? hopeful? gah. I talked to my INFJ sister, and she said she always knows what she's feelings, even if she doesn't know what caused it. Must be the Ni/ Ne difference. They have such clarity to their inner worlds, and mine is a rocky inner sea. blah.

good point alys

*introspects*

well I usually feel this way under stress or if I am giving too much of myself away, and not replenishing it with hardcore alone time (I'm only like 60% E) . Or during heart break... oh the possibilities. well, I did do a ton of charity work today, which always demands my heart and soul... and I am so capable and willing to love people and hear about their suffering but ...it must take it's toll. And things look like they are going to fall apart with my ENFJ guy... simply because he's gonna end up far away from me. But we're both still crazy about each other. sad. uugh some other emotion but I can't feel it out... damn. And it has something to do with the INTP guy I'm seeing as well. Yes... damn it.

*head meeet wall*

*continues to ramble*
oh and peaceful, happy and encouraged... yes... because I am finishing a huge project that will open tons of networking opportunities. and blessed by the people in my world ..... because I'm in love with my life.. But def upset because I want things to be different with ENFJ because he could be great for me. truly. He's the only guy i've EVER thought had long term potential because he matches in life goals/ religion/ heart and intellect. And i've never had that before... I've always sacraficed either heart or brains. And oh the INTP... I'm worried I'll end up falling for him, as would be natural and then having him flake out because he goes on tour. hurricane.   FRUSTRATED. SCARED. powerless. trapped.  angry and confused. OY! *looks back and studies herself*. huh... interesting. yes, conflicting emotions. 

Posted By alysaria on 27 Feb 2010 10:15 PM
Ok.... I gotcha now. Pretty much you've reached the same conclusion I did ages ago that no relationship lasts, and distance kills them all. Try as you might to stay in touch with people, inevitably you get sick of being the initiator of every conversation, and things just fizzle out. The realization of that end and the *idea* of losing touch are considerably more devastating than the actual loss of a connection, but that's beside the point. The point is that you are afraid the ENFJ is going to be the latest in a long list of friends that you used to be close to....and now you'd be lucky to remember their last names. >.> I had the same fear with my INTJ and INFJ friends when they moved out of state. Now I'll admit it's only been about half a year since they moved, but I stay in touch with them just as much as I did when they lived here. I've visited 4 times already, and they communicate with me just as much as I do with them. Text messaging certainly helps....doesn't require the immediate response a phone conversation does....or the attention to detail that letter writing does. I explained to them my fears - and it encouraged them to make an effort to see that it didn't happen.

Even though it was beside the point....I suppose the best I can offer is a reiteration of the fact that it does suck, it feels horrible and heartbreaking and you just want to hole up in a dark room and cry for days whenever a close friend moves (romantic attachment makes it worse I'm sure). But....the idea of that relationship ending is a million times worse then the actual event. It's more....a disappointment in the other person when it actually happens.

*hugs* Thank you for your posts, that must be hard for you. That's kinda the truth with the INTP. Im more worried about feeling like a fool... like once a fucking gain I end up liking them/ caring for them more than they do for me. And it's beautiful, it is... that I could care for someone enough that it could hurt me.  And I'll always be able to say hullo at shows and such... However with the ENFJ it's just one GIANT tangled mess.  We have dated for six weeks now via long distance (I met him on vacation).  We're both at a point in our lives where we both don't know where we're headed, since we both graduate in the spring. But we're both crazy about each other, and we've have never met anyone like one another (he is the closest thing to Edward Cullen any human could be. His heart is gold, and is super sensitive like a girl lol).  But we also feel like there are HUGE things we both need to do in our lives and we don't know if it would be smart to get involved fully since the future is unknown/ we don't want to interfere with each other's plans. So we had this massive depressing conversation tonight and it hurt.  we don't know which is more foolish, to pass up each other when we could so easily fall in love/ or to love and risk missing opportunities. And i know it will all work out in the end... we'll find some peace whatever we choose but currently it feels like I'm battling myself... between the two choices...