Remember that moment when you first laid eyes on your earliest crush(es)?
What was that like?
1. Has it successfully translated into your adulthood romance? Did you marry your first love?
If Q#1 is untrue, things never progressed, then:
2. How do you find yourself (un)intrigued by similar traits of your first crushes? In what ways have they been similar/different?
3. What are some of the consistencies that you find yourself playing out in similar scenarios repeatedly, in different roles?
4. How have your crushes crushed you?
5. What are some ways (revelations or proofs that feelings weren’t reciprocated/or mutual?) that helped you to ‘let go’ of those crushes?
Lastly, do you think that once we’re infatuated, that eventually:
A. Those feelings eventually dissipate in time?-Or-
B. Because it feels as though there is unfinished business, unresolved emotions, do you still hold onto ‘hopes’ of experiencing that one true romance from your first crushes?
C. Does this ring true to you? Sometimes, experiencing being ‘in’ a relationship can confirm certain notions, therefore allowing one to move on?
D. In what ways does it add to the mysteries of “what if’s”? How do those thoughts or feelings manifest & tie into your current saga(s)?
-OR-
E. Did you vow to yourself: "I decided to remain relationship-free, celibate, or a relationship monk, nun, at a young age?"
(These questions prompted me through some recent discussions shared by friends who have come to their own personal revelations of their childhood/teenage crushes that’s inspired me to understand how our first crushes leave imprints in our own lives.. in idiosyncratic ways..)
Above questions are open-ended/up to interpretation. Qualitative responses.. What are your singular experiences of your first crush(es)?
If you are interested, I'm thinking of writing up a thesis.. these are just some flushed out ideas I had in mind of some various boshed up concepts I may look into for further future research.. Thank you!