Schizo, do you do randomly heroic things and then run away before someone can give you credit?

-closing eyes- say yes and mean it, say yes and mean it, say yes and mean it, say yes and ...... o did i say that out loud?

@Zsych
My mother's a nice lady. A bit crazy. She's moved houses a thousand times.
My father tells me she was strong once. Rebellious before that. Beautiful before that.
Apparently I look like her.

My father is absolulely cracked. My mom believes he has some sort of borderline personality disorder or bi-polar, even.
I don't know what to think. He's the one whose craziness has shaped me into me, to say the least.
Get up in the morning, show me what you've got, never give it up, soldier. That sort of thing. Plus, real craziness. Real, real craziness.
They're alcoholics, but that's not so much a shock. My whole family's into the liquor.
It doesn't really faze me anymore.
My parents aren't together, but my dad and his wife life in the basement of my grandparents' house and I live my life in my room, really.
I plan on leaving there and studying, even though my father finds fault with everything I want to do.

If anything, I'm closer to my mother than my father, but that doesn't mean that she knows everything there is to know, it just means that she is more tolerant. Even if she is a bit double-crossing.

As for aunts and uncles, my father's side of the family is rather crazy. Italians.... They don't know me for me, I have to say that. It's more about formalilties. Politeness. Lack of expression. "Be a good girl." Egh. I shall not be contained.
As for my mother's side, they're more aware of the... rambunctious person I can be, in terms of er, well, I don't know, rambunctiousness. I have had some issues, let's just say that.

@Susan I... do nice things for people. They don't notice. I like doing nice things for people. I know I'm not going to get anything in return, and someone up there will only spite me for it anyway, but that's okay, because at least someone else is happy by it.
So, I suppose you could say, yeah.
Haha, even thinking of this morning... a lady was running for the bus and I stopped it for her. She ran her way and I went my way.

This is lame but:

http://developmental-psychology.suite101.com/article.cfm/the_benefits_of_teen_mentoring

http://www.helpingteens.org/

I think you aren't a teen either.

I have a feeling that you need someone to help you out of the environment you've been stuck in, and unfortunately, you don't seem to have immediate family members you can look to for guidance.
Its not easy solving all the problems yourself. Getting out and going to college might help but I think you need to find friends and some decent company before that.

Ultimately, go with the INTJ approach. What matters, is the solution that works. Problems must be solved... and they must be solved well. Apply this to everything, including your social life.

Don't even busy yourself with the thought of all that, haha.
It's just the life I've learned to live. I'll make it through, no worries.
It's all just a minor inconvenience, like a fly buzzing around your head.
As my dad always says, "life's a shakedown".

Ahurr hurr, hurr hurr.

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